When I am lost.......

When I am lost,
in the middle of campus,
I try,I have to try,
to try to break my silence.
WhenI am sad,
on the road to home,
I pretend,I need to pretend,
that I am not in my mood.
When I wanna find someone to talk to me,
I found no one except me.
When I wanna being accompanied my silence only,
they eventually find me.
I have no sense on what is empty,only in the sense that I am not full.
Things turned out to be not the same way I expected,
Quite hurt,very painful.
When I expected too much,I know I will be disapppointed at the end.
However,I enjoyed it,
with deeply my whole heart.
I want to say no thing,
want to embrace no one,
just myself,my faith-free self.
Wanna break my 'down' cycle,
but no one tell me how to,
What if it turns out to be a even vicious cycle??